Post by Tiff on Jun 5, 2020 15:51:11 GMT -6
This new chapter...
...I did not expect this...
Change is inevitable...but growth is optional...there's no point in fighting it...so you might as well just go with the flow...see where it takes you...and who knows? Maybe the change will turn out for the better? Maybe the change will finally bring you inner peace. Maybe all the struggles...all the fighting...all the hate...maybe it was all leading up to this moment? This......very......moment......
"BOOM! SIT THE FUCK DOWN!"
"What the......how did you get me from there?"
"THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR CAMPING, BITCH!"
"Brah...Tiffy just capped your ass!"
"Nah...Todd just sucks at this game..."
"Hey Chantelle, I don't see you trying to help!"
"Don't worry Todd, I'll avenge you! Where you hiding, little Tiffy?"
"You ain't gonna find me..."
"You wanna bet?"
"Oh shit look out!"
"OH FUCK!"
"GOTCHA!"
"Dude! How is that even fair?"
"Girl I just got your number!"
"Doesn't matter. We still got the most kills. We still win."
"What?"
"HELL YEAH! Good work Brody!"
"I got you, Ti-Ti!"
"You losers up for one more match?"
"Nah I'm good...my babe looks like she wants me right now..."
"Yeah I got other stuff to do as well..."
"Me too."
"Oh......ok then......I guess I'll see you guys around then?"
"Sure. See ya!"
...
I think I better stop too. This game is too lonely without friends...
A few seconds later...
That was fun...really wish it could have lasted longer this time though......I guess they're busy though...it's not their fault......wait......did Todd just say babe? Is that what he calls his girlfriend? Wow...none of my boyfriends ever called me that...he doesn't sound like that type of guy though......Brody on the other hand? He's got a set of balls for thinking I'm gonna let him get away with calling me Ti-Ti! I mean seriously? It'd make sense if I had bigger tits......then again he hasn't actually met me yet......we only know each other through the voice chat...he does seem nice though...I wonder if he's single? Oh! That reminds me...
Five minutes later...
So the skater dude retires and discovers a new sport...and he's good at it too...in fact, he does even better than he ever did as a skater! And he meets someone...a girl...or maybe a guy? No...has to be a girl...well...maybe? I don't know...don't wanna make him gay for the sake of being gay? But then again...maybe that could be a part of it too? Maybe he has to choose whether to go with the guy or the girl? No that's stupid...I think I'll stick with the girl......you don't know anything about being gay so it's better to leave it out of my story......anyway......so he meets this girl...he falls in love with her...but she doesn't love him yet...or ever...not sure yet...but then it turns out they're rivals competing in the same sport...but what sport is that? What would be an ideal sport for the skater dude to start playing?
*buzz*
Oh! It's Chantelle! I wonder what she wants......oh? She wants to ask me a favor on Monday? Sure! I mean...of course! Anything for you Chantelle! I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me. I can't even remember the last time I've been this happy, and I've got you to thank! I mean...
"sure np x"
Was the x too much? I don't know...hope I'm not laying it on too thick or something...it's only been a few weeks after all......anyway......think I better grab something to eat......can't think on an empty stomach...
Forty minutes later...
God I swear...sometimes Brytain just looks at me like I've got two heads...as if I'm the only one who likes a cheesecake! You're the one who said I don't have to make an effort if I don't want to...well if it keeps me happy then I'm not gonna bother...I'm never going back on that stupid diet again! At least Chantelle appreciates me for who I am...she thinks I'm beautiful! When was the last time you said anything nice to me? She has no idea what I'm going through......anyway......I think I can add a little more to the story before bed......man I can't wait to show Chantelle my new sundress...
Monday...
Ok...Morning run? Done. Shower? Done. Antidepressants? Done. Hair? Done......god I wish I tried these bangs a long time ago...I look completely unrecognizable...just the way I like it...just as long as I keep these new glasses on......anyway......how are we feeling about this dress? I know it's not my normal size...but I gotta say...it suits you perfectly. It's not too tight, and it's not too baggy...it doesn't go all the way down to the knee, but at least it doesn't ride up...it doesn't cover those thick shoulders, but that's the best cleavage I've ever had...it still makes me look like a porker, but then again, what doesn't? You may be the fat girl, but that's fine...it's fine...this is me now...this is my life now...I accept it...I'm two dress sizes bigger...nothing wrong with that...in fact, this is better...this is much better...look at those sunflower prints! Old Tiffany wouldn't be caught dead in this......but that's not me anymore! I'm new Tiffany, and new Tiffany is a fun loving fat girl! Isn't that great? It's super great...you know what? I think I'm ready......just one quick snack first......and now I'm good to go...
Outside...
"Hey Chantelle!"
"Hey Tiffy! Wow...girl, check you out!"
"Oh...this? Yeah, it's my new dress...thought it'd be nice out in the sun..."
Wish I put on some god damn lotion though...
"That's great! You totally have to tell me where you bought it later..."
"You bet! Hey...fancy another sandwich?"
"Yeah of course!"
A few minutes later...
"Oh god that's good!"
Easy there tiger...don't get too excited...just keep stuffing yourself with that tuna sandwich while poor Chantelle is stuck that little veggie sandwich...
"I'm sorry...am I making you uncomfortable?"
"No...it's ok...I'm used to it..."
What's that supposed to mean?
"Anyway...I was wondering if you had any plans this Friday?"
Plans? Yeah right...only plans I ever get involve...actually...let's not say...
"No...I mean...not that I know of yet...what's up?"
"Well......have you heard of Dungeons & Dragons?"
What the fuck?
"Uhhh...yeah...don't know anything about it though..."
"Oh......well......you know Todd, right?"
"Yeah..."
"He runs his own Youtube channel..."
Oh...
"...usually he live streams himself playing games...but this Friday he wants to try and stream a game of D&D in his basement. He's got everything set up and all...the only problem is we don't have enough people to play...we want a party of four but Brody, Hannah and Steven can't make it..."
Uh oh...
"I...I mean...it's up to you obviously...but I was just wondering...if you wanted to join us?"
No...no no no no no no no...
"I...I don't know..."
"It's not a big channel or anything...only like thirty subscribers or something...I think the most views he ever got was like fifty...it's just a laugh between friends, you know?"
Fuck why did she have to use the F word?
"And if you don't feel comfortable, you know I'll be there, right? You can sit next to me...and if you need help with anything, I'll be there for you..."
Oh god I can't say no now...
"It'll be you, me, Todd and his friends Chris and Leon. I promise they're not total jackasses..."
How can I get out of this?
"Well......ok......why not?"
WHAT!?
"Really? That's great! Oh thank you Tiffy, thank you!"
Oh my god...did she just hug me? No...don't let go...
"Don't worry girl, we got this! If you need any help with anything, just let me know. Imagine us two on a fun D&D adventure! It'll be great! We're about to be Youtube famous!"
Yeah...won't that be something?
"Alright, I gotta bounce...I'll talk to you tonight, yeah?"
"Uhhh yeah...sure...no problem..."
What the fuck did I just get myself into?
Inside...
What do I do? What do I do? I can't go through with this...do they have any idea who I am? I can't be in front of cameras...not yet...I can't be seen like this...what if they recognize me? What if Todd's friends recognizes me? What if I get called out on camera? I'll be a fucking laughing stock...there'll be tabloids about me...saying how fat I've got...I can't deal with that...I can't deal with this...I just gotta say no...tell Chantelle you can't make it and that'll be that...but what if she doesn't forgive me? I'm sure she'll understand...or will she? What if our friendship depends on this? But what if Todd's friends recognize me? What if she finds out who I really am...I mean...who I used to be? What the fuck should I do? Oh my god I don't know...I need something to eat...
One hour later...
Why are you seriously considering this? Obviously you can't go through with this...it's too risky. Someone's gonna find out, I know it......but I've already said yes...I can't let Chantelle down...not again anyway...she already thinks I'm a poor friend......god why did you have to eat that fucking sandwich in front of her face like that? You fucking creep......no......I can't go through with this...I just can't...maybe I should just come out? I mean...maybe I should tell her the truth? I don't know...what will she think of me? She'll probably be like "Wow you really let yourself go didn't you?" just like everyone else...oh god I can't do this...
*buzz*
Uh oh...
"Hi Chantelle..."
"Hey Tiffy! You doing ok?"
Now's your chance! Tell her!
"Yeah...I'm ok..."
Come on Tiff! Do it!
"I hope so...you didn't exactly sound excited about this live stream on Friday...are you sure you're ok with it?"
TELL HER!!
"I...I don't know...I just don't know if I'm ready..."
"Look...you don't have to if you don't want to...it's fine...I just...I just thought it'd be good for your confidence, that's all..."
What?
"Please don't take this the wrong way, but I honestly feel like I'm the only person you ever wanna spend time with...so maybe if you helped me and Todd with this stream...I don't know...maybe it'll be better for you...I mean...there's only so much you get to do in voice chat, right?"
I...I can't...
"If you don't feel comfortable on camera, it's fine...really...but just so you know...it's not my first stream. I've been in one of Todd's videos before...it's actually really fun, you know? It's not like there's that many people watching either. Like I said, we barely get any views. It's not a big deal, I swear...and besides...if you're nervous about it, you know I'll be there...I'll sit next to you...and if you want, we can always have a makeover...make sure we look good for the camera, right? Sorry...I didn't mean to...I mean...if you don't want to...that's fine. I just thought it'd be fun that's all...us two versus the boys...playing a silly little game...having a laugh...I don't know...it sounds really stupid coming from me...I understand if you don't want to...but just so you know...I'd love it if you come..."
...
"I'm sorry Tiff...I don't mean to pressure you or anything...I just wanted to hang out with you a little more..."
...
"Hello? Are you still there?"
"...yeah..."
"Listen...I've got a day off all day Friday...so before the stream...I mean if you want to that is...maybe you can come over to my place? Just to chill, that's all...I mean...before we go live or something...help each other look our best for the camera, right? We can always go shopping instead...pick out some nice outfits for each other...I don't know...it's up to you. Like I said, no pressure or anything...I just think this will be good for you...I mean...for both of us. What do you say?"
...
"Tiff?"
"...sure...sounds...good..."
"I'm sorry...we'll talk more tomorrow, ok? Love you..."
...
...ok...I...uhh......I......I...how can I say no now? I...I guess I'm going on a live stream then......oh god......gonna vom...
Tuesday...
So I've learned a little more about what I'm getting myself into......basically it's me, Chantelle, Todd and his friend Chris, sitting at a table, in front of a camera, playing this D&D thing...while Todd's other friend Leon sits in between us and does whatever this Dungeon Master thing does......apparently Leon set up this quest for us or something and we're supposed to work together to complete it......I don't have a fucking clue how to play...no matter how many times Chantelle teaches me I just can't grasp it...why do I have to roll the dice so many times? I can learn how to play a video game, but this is so much harder......and I gotta do this live? In front of a camera? Shut up Tiff...it's like what Chantelle said...it's not a big deal...you've seen Todd's channel yourself...what a stupid name, no wonder he barely got any subs......no one will notice me. I know they won't...but what if they do? What if it goes viral? Oh...wait...it's a live stream, isn't it? Don't they get deleted after a while? See what I mean? No one will notice...and when it gets deleted...no one can ever hold it against you...it'll be gone for good! See? Why do you have to be so nervous for? I mean...one of Todd's friends could still recognize you...god I hope they don't watch wrestling...
Wednesday...
So I've got this character sheet that I'm supposed to complete......I've spent all night trying to work it out but I can't do shit......so far all I've got is the name, race and sex......how am I supposed to work out how many hit points I've got? What the hell does constitution even mean? For fuck sake...I'll just get Chantelle to help me this afternoon......she obviously knows a lot more than me......I wonder what kind of character she's gonna use? Should I pick the same stuff as her? I don't know...maybe I should ask Todd? Yeah right...he'll probably tell me to be a Halfling or something...as if...I'm already short enough in real life, I don't wanna be short in whatever this game's supposed to be......maybe I should be a Dragonborn? Yeah that'll show him......oh god maybe I should change my name too? Massacarla sounds way too stupid...
Thursday...
Fuck me those waffles were good! Nice to have a decent breakfast for once......anyway......I think my character sheet is done now......my character's gonna be a badass! Maybe I should write my book about this character instead? Yeah...fuck the skater dude...this is a character people will actually care about! Hey...maybe this D&D thing might actually be good for me after all......I mean...if this game is any good, maybe I can use some of the ideas for my book? Wow that's genuinely a good idea......wait......is this gonna be a one-off? Or is it gonna be a series? I'd better ask Chantelle later......oh god......look at those fucking roots! I'd better dye my hair again soon......well actually......should I stay blonde? I don't know...these bangs look pretty good already...maybe I should go back to brunette? Nah...that looked stupid when I was fourteen, it'll look stupid again now......should I ask Brytain to help with my make-up tomorrow? Should I even have make-up? I don't think......well actually......oh god......this acne's really starting to break out......that's not going away tomorrow......I think I'd better put some make-up on right now...
"Hey mom! Can you come up here for a sec?"
Friday...
"You feeling ok, kiddo?"
Well...at least she didn't completely fuck it up...it looks a little better than yesterday...not so noticeable now......I mean......thank fuck for Brytain, am I right? And thank fuck she puts up with my shit...like I mean...if I was her, I would have kicked me out months ago......then again I'm not exactly making it easy for her......don't think I would last five minutes on my own......oh shit...she's waiting for an answer...
"I'm good. Thanks mom...thanks for everything..."
Her hugs are so warm...please don't let go...ok never mind you already did...
"Have fun today, alright?"
"I will..."
Oh fuck......this is it......the big day......ok calm down Tiff......deep breaths......it's no big deal...it's not a big deal...it's just a bunch of us hanging out, playing a game of Dungeons & Dragons......in front of a camera......live......shit......what the fuck do I even wear? Oh god...think I'd better call Chantelle...she'd know what to say...
A few minutes later...
She's right......it's a game of D&D......not a fucking prom! T-shirt and jeans are fine...I'll just wear my fave......oh......right......I forgot......well I should have a few large shirts somewhere......ok here we go......oh I don't know actually......is it dorky to wear a Creeper shirt outside? Better play it safe......alright this is more like it......my Pickle Rick shirt...that should draw too much attention......man it's getting a little tight though...did Brytain wash this or something? At least it makes my chest look bigger......and now for the jeans......oh god what a fucking struggle......fucking hell, talk about a wide load......well hopefully no one will notice......yeah as if no one's gonna notice your dumb fatass......and now for the glasses......and......oh god nerd alert......man I hope no one notices me like this......oh wait......I'm going on a camera......fuck...
*buzz*
Looks like Chantelle's ready too......I guess this is it......if I go now, there's no turning back......fuck if she never forgives you......if you bail now, I'll never forgive you......just can't believe this is happening......oh shit...it's ok...don't panic......why am I getting so nervous? It's never like this before a match......I don't give two shits about fighting Seth or Aries...but this is seriously getting to you? Fuck...what do I normally do to calm myself before a match? Think Tiff think...
A few minutes later...
Ok that does it......Tiff, stop eating for a god damn minute......Chantelle's waiting in the park right now......you're gonna give yourself a cramp but I don't care......no more fucking around......let's go...
Back outside...
I do care...fuck this sucks......last time I eat before a walk......well at least Chantelle's here too......wow she looks completely different in a shirt a jeans......I don't even know what that is on her shirt...something anime I think...
"Hey Tiffy! You ready?"
*gulp*
"Hey! Yeah...I think so..."
We're stopping by at Chantelle's house first......I can't even believe this is a thing that's happening right now......I'm in Chantelle's house......god this is like the cleanest house I've ever seen......uh oh...her parents are here? I guess this is their house more than Chantelle's, but still! Oh thank fuck they don't recognize me either......does anyone actually watch wrestling in this city? Oh god......I'm in Chantelle's room now......oh fuck, why is my heart pounding so hard? When was the last time you were in another girl's bedroom? Oh god don't put it that way, you sound like a fucking pervert right now......why do you have to be such a psycho? What are we doing here again?
Thirty minutes later...
Well that was weird......why would she bring me all the way to her room just for a talk? It's not like we talked about anything important either...is this what other girls normally do? Is this why girls always go in bathrooms together? I don't know, I think I should have been born a man sometimes......uh oh it looks like we're going now......wait......we're not walking? Oh...Chantelle's dad is dropping us off? How far away does Todd live? Well at least we ain't walking...dont have to look like such a sweaty hog in front of the camera...that's good......I guess Chantelle's dad is gonna take us back afterwards? But how am I supposed to get home after that? Fuck...I guess that means more walking for me! Well...at least Chantelle smells nice...
Ten minutes later...
I guess this is it? Really? What a rough neighborhood...Todd doesn't even live in a detached house? Weird......oh god here come the butterflies again......why does this keep happening? It's not like I'm fighting Nora again...
"Well hello ladies..."
Oh fuck Todd...
"Hey Todd..."
"We've got everything set up downstairs. You girls ready?"
"You know it. Got our character sheets and everything!"
"Awesome! Hey Tiff...let me introduce you to the guys first..."
Oh god...here we go...meeting more new people...fuck I wish I don't look like a total dork......oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck now I definitely wish I don't! Who the fuck is this? This guy's a fucking hunk! Look at the size of those...I mean...good lord he's so jacked! Chris, huh? Oh god I'm sweating......play it cool Tiff...just play it cool...
"...sup?"
Wow...you sure know how to talk to guys, right? No wonder all your other boyfriends left you......and this is Leon? Well I guess he looks ok too...probably more around my range......oh god just stop thinking already...
"Well gang...are we ready to get started?"
Already? Oh god this is it? Can I at least get a bottle of water first? Holy shit...look at this...this is insane...this looks like a real set! Lights and everything! How did Todd even do this? Oh god how many cameras are even down here? What is this, a fucking movie? Oh god...this is happening, isn't it? Why did I agree to this? I shouldn't have come here...I shouldn't......oh thank fuck there's water down here...
"Alright...I'll be checking the live chat while we're playing. I gotta leave my laptop plugged in so I'm sitting on this end. Chris can sit by me, and then Leon's in the middle..."
"So I guess me and Tiff are on this side? Ok I'll be by Leon...why don't you sit on the end, Tiff?"
"Sure..."
Damn...I wanted to sit by Chris...
Several minutes later...
"Is everybody ready?"
Oh god no...
"And we're live in three...two...one..."
FUCK NO!!
"Hey guys! T-1 here, and welcome to the Triple-G gaming channel! We've got a special treat for you today guys...cuz today, we're playing Dungeons & Dragons! Now obviously I can't play all by myself...which is why I've got myself a few friends over. So first of all, I'd like you all to meet my good friend...what's your name today, buddy?"
"Hi. My name's Leon..."
"So Leon here is gonna be the Dungeon Master for today. And man does he have a special quest for our adventurers!"
"But who are these brave adventurers? Let's find out! First up to my left...would you care to introduce your character please?"
"Yes. I am Cruroar...a Half-Orc ranger. Male. I am a farmer from in the Roaring Fields, and I love animals."
So dreamy...
"Oh...I'm Thoeak Runehouse...I'm a male Dwarf paladin...and I am a noble guard. I've sworn an oath to protect the royal family of the Dwarven mountains at all costs..."
This is stupid...
"And now to my right we have..."
"Hi! I mean...hey guys! I'm Lady Carella. I'm a female Elf druid. I come from Clan of the Green Claw, and I believe in the preservation of nature..."
God I love her...
...
...wait what?
"And finally..."
...I mean...what the fuck did I just say?
"...we have..."
...oh fuck I think it's my turn...
...
"Oh......uhhh......I...I'm a..."
Don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze...
"...I mean......hi......I...I'm Slaughterra...I'm a female...I'm a Dragonborn fighter...and I live out in the city streets...I fight for money..."
...
Oh god how was that? I didn't stutter too much, did I? Why is Chris looking at me like that? Did I say something bad? Oh god...
"And there we have it. Our brave adventurers are ready, so how about we get started?"
There's no turning back now...I just gotta play along...keep playing...go with the flow...maybe this will actually be fun...there's only one way to find out...
"Ok. Let's begin..."
God I hope no one watches this...
...
...I did not expect this...
Change is inevitable...but growth is optional...there's no point in fighting it...so you might as well just go with the flow...see where it takes you...and who knows? Maybe the change will turn out for the better? Maybe the change will finally bring you inner peace. Maybe all the struggles...all the fighting...all the hate...maybe it was all leading up to this moment? This......very......moment......
"BOOM! SIT THE FUCK DOWN!"
"What the......how did you get me from there?"
"THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR CAMPING, BITCH!"
"Brah...Tiffy just capped your ass!"
"Nah...Todd just sucks at this game..."
"Hey Chantelle, I don't see you trying to help!"
"Don't worry Todd, I'll avenge you! Where you hiding, little Tiffy?"
"You ain't gonna find me..."
"You wanna bet?"
"Oh shit look out!"
"OH FUCK!"
"GOTCHA!"
"Dude! How is that even fair?"
"Girl I just got your number!"
"Doesn't matter. We still got the most kills. We still win."
"What?"
"HELL YEAH! Good work Brody!"
"I got you, Ti-Ti!"
"You losers up for one more match?"
"Nah I'm good...my babe looks like she wants me right now..."
"Yeah I got other stuff to do as well..."
"Me too."
"Oh......ok then......I guess I'll see you guys around then?"
"Sure. See ya!"
...
I think I better stop too. This game is too lonely without friends...
A few seconds later...
That was fun...really wish it could have lasted longer this time though......I guess they're busy though...it's not their fault......wait......did Todd just say babe? Is that what he calls his girlfriend? Wow...none of my boyfriends ever called me that...he doesn't sound like that type of guy though......Brody on the other hand? He's got a set of balls for thinking I'm gonna let him get away with calling me Ti-Ti! I mean seriously? It'd make sense if I had bigger tits......then again he hasn't actually met me yet......we only know each other through the voice chat...he does seem nice though...I wonder if he's single? Oh! That reminds me...
Five minutes later...
So the skater dude retires and discovers a new sport...and he's good at it too...in fact, he does even better than he ever did as a skater! And he meets someone...a girl...or maybe a guy? No...has to be a girl...well...maybe? I don't know...don't wanna make him gay for the sake of being gay? But then again...maybe that could be a part of it too? Maybe he has to choose whether to go with the guy or the girl? No that's stupid...I think I'll stick with the girl......you don't know anything about being gay so it's better to leave it out of my story......anyway......so he meets this girl...he falls in love with her...but she doesn't love him yet...or ever...not sure yet...but then it turns out they're rivals competing in the same sport...but what sport is that? What would be an ideal sport for the skater dude to start playing?
*buzz*
Oh! It's Chantelle! I wonder what she wants......oh? She wants to ask me a favor on Monday? Sure! I mean...of course! Anything for you Chantelle! I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me. I can't even remember the last time I've been this happy, and I've got you to thank! I mean...
"sure np x"
Was the x too much? I don't know...hope I'm not laying it on too thick or something...it's only been a few weeks after all......anyway......think I better grab something to eat......can't think on an empty stomach...
Forty minutes later...
God I swear...sometimes Brytain just looks at me like I've got two heads...as if I'm the only one who likes a cheesecake! You're the one who said I don't have to make an effort if I don't want to...well if it keeps me happy then I'm not gonna bother...I'm never going back on that stupid diet again! At least Chantelle appreciates me for who I am...she thinks I'm beautiful! When was the last time you said anything nice to me? She has no idea what I'm going through......anyway......I think I can add a little more to the story before bed......man I can't wait to show Chantelle my new sundress...
Monday...
Ok...Morning run? Done. Shower? Done. Antidepressants? Done. Hair? Done......god I wish I tried these bangs a long time ago...I look completely unrecognizable...just the way I like it...just as long as I keep these new glasses on......anyway......how are we feeling about this dress? I know it's not my normal size...but I gotta say...it suits you perfectly. It's not too tight, and it's not too baggy...it doesn't go all the way down to the knee, but at least it doesn't ride up...it doesn't cover those thick shoulders, but that's the best cleavage I've ever had...it still makes me look like a porker, but then again, what doesn't? You may be the fat girl, but that's fine...it's fine...this is me now...this is my life now...I accept it...I'm two dress sizes bigger...nothing wrong with that...in fact, this is better...this is much better...look at those sunflower prints! Old Tiffany wouldn't be caught dead in this......but that's not me anymore! I'm new Tiffany, and new Tiffany is a fun loving fat girl! Isn't that great? It's super great...you know what? I think I'm ready......just one quick snack first......and now I'm good to go...
Outside...
"Hey Chantelle!"
"Hey Tiffy! Wow...girl, check you out!"
"Oh...this? Yeah, it's my new dress...thought it'd be nice out in the sun..."
Wish I put on some god damn lotion though...
"That's great! You totally have to tell me where you bought it later..."
"You bet! Hey...fancy another sandwich?"
"Yeah of course!"
A few minutes later...
"Oh god that's good!"
Easy there tiger...don't get too excited...just keep stuffing yourself with that tuna sandwich while poor Chantelle is stuck that little veggie sandwich...
"I'm sorry...am I making you uncomfortable?"
"No...it's ok...I'm used to it..."
What's that supposed to mean?
"Anyway...I was wondering if you had any plans this Friday?"
Plans? Yeah right...only plans I ever get involve...actually...let's not say...
"No...I mean...not that I know of yet...what's up?"
"Well......have you heard of Dungeons & Dragons?"
What the fuck?
"Uhhh...yeah...don't know anything about it though..."
"Oh......well......you know Todd, right?"
"Yeah..."
"He runs his own Youtube channel..."
Oh...
"...usually he live streams himself playing games...but this Friday he wants to try and stream a game of D&D in his basement. He's got everything set up and all...the only problem is we don't have enough people to play...we want a party of four but Brody, Hannah and Steven can't make it..."
Uh oh...
"I...I mean...it's up to you obviously...but I was just wondering...if you wanted to join us?"
No...no no no no no no no...
"I...I don't know..."
"It's not a big channel or anything...only like thirty subscribers or something...I think the most views he ever got was like fifty...it's just a laugh between friends, you know?"
Fuck why did she have to use the F word?
"And if you don't feel comfortable, you know I'll be there, right? You can sit next to me...and if you need help with anything, I'll be there for you..."
Oh god I can't say no now...
"It'll be you, me, Todd and his friends Chris and Leon. I promise they're not total jackasses..."
How can I get out of this?
"Well......ok......why not?"
WHAT!?
"Really? That's great! Oh thank you Tiffy, thank you!"
Oh my god...did she just hug me? No...don't let go...
"Don't worry girl, we got this! If you need any help with anything, just let me know. Imagine us two on a fun D&D adventure! It'll be great! We're about to be Youtube famous!"
Yeah...won't that be something?
"Alright, I gotta bounce...I'll talk to you tonight, yeah?"
"Uhhh yeah...sure...no problem..."
What the fuck did I just get myself into?
Inside...
What do I do? What do I do? I can't go through with this...do they have any idea who I am? I can't be in front of cameras...not yet...I can't be seen like this...what if they recognize me? What if Todd's friends recognizes me? What if I get called out on camera? I'll be a fucking laughing stock...there'll be tabloids about me...saying how fat I've got...I can't deal with that...I can't deal with this...I just gotta say no...tell Chantelle you can't make it and that'll be that...but what if she doesn't forgive me? I'm sure she'll understand...or will she? What if our friendship depends on this? But what if Todd's friends recognize me? What if she finds out who I really am...I mean...who I used to be? What the fuck should I do? Oh my god I don't know...I need something to eat...
One hour later...
Why are you seriously considering this? Obviously you can't go through with this...it's too risky. Someone's gonna find out, I know it......but I've already said yes...I can't let Chantelle down...not again anyway...she already thinks I'm a poor friend......god why did you have to eat that fucking sandwich in front of her face like that? You fucking creep......no......I can't go through with this...I just can't...maybe I should just come out? I mean...maybe I should tell her the truth? I don't know...what will she think of me? She'll probably be like "Wow you really let yourself go didn't you?" just like everyone else...oh god I can't do this...
*buzz*
Uh oh...
"Hi Chantelle..."
"Hey Tiffy! You doing ok?"
Now's your chance! Tell her!
"Yeah...I'm ok..."
Come on Tiff! Do it!
"I hope so...you didn't exactly sound excited about this live stream on Friday...are you sure you're ok with it?"
TELL HER!!
"I...I don't know...I just don't know if I'm ready..."
"Look...you don't have to if you don't want to...it's fine...I just...I just thought it'd be good for your confidence, that's all..."
What?
"Please don't take this the wrong way, but I honestly feel like I'm the only person you ever wanna spend time with...so maybe if you helped me and Todd with this stream...I don't know...maybe it'll be better for you...I mean...there's only so much you get to do in voice chat, right?"
I...I can't...
"If you don't feel comfortable on camera, it's fine...really...but just so you know...it's not my first stream. I've been in one of Todd's videos before...it's actually really fun, you know? It's not like there's that many people watching either. Like I said, we barely get any views. It's not a big deal, I swear...and besides...if you're nervous about it, you know I'll be there...I'll sit next to you...and if you want, we can always have a makeover...make sure we look good for the camera, right? Sorry...I didn't mean to...I mean...if you don't want to...that's fine. I just thought it'd be fun that's all...us two versus the boys...playing a silly little game...having a laugh...I don't know...it sounds really stupid coming from me...I understand if you don't want to...but just so you know...I'd love it if you come..."
...
"I'm sorry Tiff...I don't mean to pressure you or anything...I just wanted to hang out with you a little more..."
...
"Hello? Are you still there?"
"...yeah..."
"Listen...I've got a day off all day Friday...so before the stream...I mean if you want to that is...maybe you can come over to my place? Just to chill, that's all...I mean...before we go live or something...help each other look our best for the camera, right? We can always go shopping instead...pick out some nice outfits for each other...I don't know...it's up to you. Like I said, no pressure or anything...I just think this will be good for you...I mean...for both of us. What do you say?"
...
"Tiff?"
"...sure...sounds...good..."
"I'm sorry...we'll talk more tomorrow, ok? Love you..."
...
...ok...I...uhh......I......I...how can I say no now? I...I guess I'm going on a live stream then......oh god......gonna vom...
Tuesday...
So I've learned a little more about what I'm getting myself into......basically it's me, Chantelle, Todd and his friend Chris, sitting at a table, in front of a camera, playing this D&D thing...while Todd's other friend Leon sits in between us and does whatever this Dungeon Master thing does......apparently Leon set up this quest for us or something and we're supposed to work together to complete it......I don't have a fucking clue how to play...no matter how many times Chantelle teaches me I just can't grasp it...why do I have to roll the dice so many times? I can learn how to play a video game, but this is so much harder......and I gotta do this live? In front of a camera? Shut up Tiff...it's like what Chantelle said...it's not a big deal...you've seen Todd's channel yourself...what a stupid name, no wonder he barely got any subs......no one will notice me. I know they won't...but what if they do? What if it goes viral? Oh...wait...it's a live stream, isn't it? Don't they get deleted after a while? See what I mean? No one will notice...and when it gets deleted...no one can ever hold it against you...it'll be gone for good! See? Why do you have to be so nervous for? I mean...one of Todd's friends could still recognize you...god I hope they don't watch wrestling...
Wednesday...
So I've got this character sheet that I'm supposed to complete......I've spent all night trying to work it out but I can't do shit......so far all I've got is the name, race and sex......how am I supposed to work out how many hit points I've got? What the hell does constitution even mean? For fuck sake...I'll just get Chantelle to help me this afternoon......she obviously knows a lot more than me......I wonder what kind of character she's gonna use? Should I pick the same stuff as her? I don't know...maybe I should ask Todd? Yeah right...he'll probably tell me to be a Halfling or something...as if...I'm already short enough in real life, I don't wanna be short in whatever this game's supposed to be......maybe I should be a Dragonborn? Yeah that'll show him......oh god maybe I should change my name too? Massacarla sounds way too stupid...
Thursday...
Fuck me those waffles were good! Nice to have a decent breakfast for once......anyway......I think my character sheet is done now......my character's gonna be a badass! Maybe I should write my book about this character instead? Yeah...fuck the skater dude...this is a character people will actually care about! Hey...maybe this D&D thing might actually be good for me after all......I mean...if this game is any good, maybe I can use some of the ideas for my book? Wow that's genuinely a good idea......wait......is this gonna be a one-off? Or is it gonna be a series? I'd better ask Chantelle later......oh god......look at those fucking roots! I'd better dye my hair again soon......well actually......should I stay blonde? I don't know...these bangs look pretty good already...maybe I should go back to brunette? Nah...that looked stupid when I was fourteen, it'll look stupid again now......should I ask Brytain to help with my make-up tomorrow? Should I even have make-up? I don't think......well actually......oh god......this acne's really starting to break out......that's not going away tomorrow......I think I'd better put some make-up on right now...
"Hey mom! Can you come up here for a sec?"
Friday...
"You feeling ok, kiddo?"
Well...at least she didn't completely fuck it up...it looks a little better than yesterday...not so noticeable now......I mean......thank fuck for Brytain, am I right? And thank fuck she puts up with my shit...like I mean...if I was her, I would have kicked me out months ago......then again I'm not exactly making it easy for her......don't think I would last five minutes on my own......oh shit...she's waiting for an answer...
"I'm good. Thanks mom...thanks for everything..."
Her hugs are so warm...please don't let go...ok never mind you already did...
"Have fun today, alright?"
"I will..."
Oh fuck......this is it......the big day......ok calm down Tiff......deep breaths......it's no big deal...it's not a big deal...it's just a bunch of us hanging out, playing a game of Dungeons & Dragons......in front of a camera......live......shit......what the fuck do I even wear? Oh god...think I'd better call Chantelle...she'd know what to say...
A few minutes later...
She's right......it's a game of D&D......not a fucking prom! T-shirt and jeans are fine...I'll just wear my fave......oh......right......I forgot......well I should have a few large shirts somewhere......ok here we go......oh I don't know actually......is it dorky to wear a Creeper shirt outside? Better play it safe......alright this is more like it......my Pickle Rick shirt...that should draw too much attention......man it's getting a little tight though...did Brytain wash this or something? At least it makes my chest look bigger......and now for the jeans......oh god what a fucking struggle......fucking hell, talk about a wide load......well hopefully no one will notice......yeah as if no one's gonna notice your dumb fatass......and now for the glasses......and......oh god nerd alert......man I hope no one notices me like this......oh wait......I'm going on a camera......fuck...
*buzz*
Looks like Chantelle's ready too......I guess this is it......if I go now, there's no turning back......fuck if she never forgives you......if you bail now, I'll never forgive you......just can't believe this is happening......oh shit...it's ok...don't panic......why am I getting so nervous? It's never like this before a match......I don't give two shits about fighting Seth or Aries...but this is seriously getting to you? Fuck...what do I normally do to calm myself before a match? Think Tiff think...
A few minutes later...
Ok that does it......Tiff, stop eating for a god damn minute......Chantelle's waiting in the park right now......you're gonna give yourself a cramp but I don't care......no more fucking around......let's go...
Back outside...
I do care...fuck this sucks......last time I eat before a walk......well at least Chantelle's here too......wow she looks completely different in a shirt a jeans......I don't even know what that is on her shirt...something anime I think...
"Hey Tiffy! You ready?"
*gulp*
"Hey! Yeah...I think so..."
We're stopping by at Chantelle's house first......I can't even believe this is a thing that's happening right now......I'm in Chantelle's house......god this is like the cleanest house I've ever seen......uh oh...her parents are here? I guess this is their house more than Chantelle's, but still! Oh thank fuck they don't recognize me either......does anyone actually watch wrestling in this city? Oh god......I'm in Chantelle's room now......oh fuck, why is my heart pounding so hard? When was the last time you were in another girl's bedroom? Oh god don't put it that way, you sound like a fucking pervert right now......why do you have to be such a psycho? What are we doing here again?
Thirty minutes later...
Well that was weird......why would she bring me all the way to her room just for a talk? It's not like we talked about anything important either...is this what other girls normally do? Is this why girls always go in bathrooms together? I don't know, I think I should have been born a man sometimes......uh oh it looks like we're going now......wait......we're not walking? Oh...Chantelle's dad is dropping us off? How far away does Todd live? Well at least we ain't walking...dont have to look like such a sweaty hog in front of the camera...that's good......I guess Chantelle's dad is gonna take us back afterwards? But how am I supposed to get home after that? Fuck...I guess that means more walking for me! Well...at least Chantelle smells nice...
Ten minutes later...
I guess this is it? Really? What a rough neighborhood...Todd doesn't even live in a detached house? Weird......oh god here come the butterflies again......why does this keep happening? It's not like I'm fighting Nora again...
"Well hello ladies..."
Oh fuck Todd...
"Hey Todd..."
"We've got everything set up downstairs. You girls ready?"
"You know it. Got our character sheets and everything!"
"Awesome! Hey Tiff...let me introduce you to the guys first..."
Oh god...here we go...meeting more new people...fuck I wish I don't look like a total dork......oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck now I definitely wish I don't! Who the fuck is this? This guy's a fucking hunk! Look at the size of those...I mean...good lord he's so jacked! Chris, huh? Oh god I'm sweating......play it cool Tiff...just play it cool...
"...sup?"
Wow...you sure know how to talk to guys, right? No wonder all your other boyfriends left you......and this is Leon? Well I guess he looks ok too...probably more around my range......oh god just stop thinking already...
"Well gang...are we ready to get started?"
Already? Oh god this is it? Can I at least get a bottle of water first? Holy shit...look at this...this is insane...this looks like a real set! Lights and everything! How did Todd even do this? Oh god how many cameras are even down here? What is this, a fucking movie? Oh god...this is happening, isn't it? Why did I agree to this? I shouldn't have come here...I shouldn't......oh thank fuck there's water down here...
"Alright...I'll be checking the live chat while we're playing. I gotta leave my laptop plugged in so I'm sitting on this end. Chris can sit by me, and then Leon's in the middle..."
"So I guess me and Tiff are on this side? Ok I'll be by Leon...why don't you sit on the end, Tiff?"
"Sure..."
Damn...I wanted to sit by Chris...
Several minutes later...
"Is everybody ready?"
Oh god no...
"And we're live in three...two...one..."
FUCK NO!!
"Hey guys! T-1 here, and welcome to the Triple-G gaming channel! We've got a special treat for you today guys...cuz today, we're playing Dungeons & Dragons! Now obviously I can't play all by myself...which is why I've got myself a few friends over. So first of all, I'd like you all to meet my good friend...what's your name today, buddy?"
"Hi. My name's Leon..."
"So Leon here is gonna be the Dungeon Master for today. And man does he have a special quest for our adventurers!"
"But who are these brave adventurers? Let's find out! First up to my left...would you care to introduce your character please?"
"Yes. I am Cruroar...a Half-Orc ranger. Male. I am a farmer from in the Roaring Fields, and I love animals."
So dreamy...
"Oh...I'm Thoeak Runehouse...I'm a male Dwarf paladin...and I am a noble guard. I've sworn an oath to protect the royal family of the Dwarven mountains at all costs..."
This is stupid...
"And now to my right we have..."
"Hi! I mean...hey guys! I'm Lady Carella. I'm a female Elf druid. I come from Clan of the Green Claw, and I believe in the preservation of nature..."
God I love her...
...
...wait what?
"And finally..."
...I mean...what the fuck did I just say?
"...we have..."
...oh fuck I think it's my turn...
...
"Oh......uhhh......I...I'm a..."
Don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze don't freeze...
"...I mean......hi......I...I'm Slaughterra...I'm a female...I'm a Dragonborn fighter...and I live out in the city streets...I fight for money..."
...
Oh god how was that? I didn't stutter too much, did I? Why is Chris looking at me like that? Did I say something bad? Oh god...
"And there we have it. Our brave adventurers are ready, so how about we get started?"
There's no turning back now...I just gotta play along...keep playing...go with the flow...maybe this will actually be fun...there's only one way to find out...
"Ok. Let's begin..."
God I hope no one watches this...
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