Post by Christopher Kane on Oct 21, 2018 23:36:15 GMT -6
There was no video on the YouTube video. Rather just the voice. The voice of Christopher Kane as he didn’t want to be seen by the public. Just heard. The video already had 200 views which was normal for him. No one cared to watch his videos anymore, to hear what he had to say and so he stopped. He stopped uploading his thoughts to the media giant and instead kept to himself. This was different. He wanted to talk to people. And if no more than 200 people listened, it was 200 more than he expected.
“You know, it’s funny when I look back on it. After I lost to Nessa Wall in the battle for the briefcase tournament, I asked for a match against Chuck Matthews because I wanted to make an impact. Losing in the tournament stung at me, ate at me, and I did something dumb to get the match made, but it was made.”
He sighed showing some disgust for his unreasonable actions following that match on social media.
“The match was made against Chuck Matthews at Into the Fire and he showed that he can still go. He worked over my leg, made it hard for me to do what I did then, fly around. But I pinned him right in the middle of the ring. I went to the back and sat and thought about it. I thought about it some more and I asked myself what did that really accomplish. That I could beat a businessman who hadn’t been in the ring for a while?”
He paused for a moment.
“What did that give me? Nothing. Battle Cry rolls around. Scheduled to face someone, they back out as they have elsewhere and left me with no one. Little sister voices up and say she wants me in the ring. I didn’t want to fight Brittany. I never wanted to go against my sister so I gave her the win and said what I had to say which I still mean. This sport is about the likes on Twitter, the hot takes and the draggings. Do I disagree with some of what is said? No, there’s a lot ruining this sport, but I swear that no one wants to work hard anymore, and myself was included to that.
I felt like the world owed me something. Felt like I had more coming to me than I did because of this goddamn name. I felt like I was meant to be more than I was because of some of the insane shit that I’ve done. I’ve jumped off things in Ultimate X, I’ve been in wars with the skin on my forehead dangling down because someone wanted to hurt me that and I’ve been in matches where three, four people get involved.
Been wrestling since I was 16. My fifth match or so in this sport, I was facing a veteran. A guy who didn’t take too kindly to me being in the same company. I was lit up that night. He hit me hard in the jaw, nearly broke it. Gave me a concussion. Made me bleed. He took me to hell and back that night but I didn’t give up, didn’t stop because this is what I wanted to do with my life. I paid my dues, as some of the older people in this sport said. I paid those dues by helping set up the ring before shows even though I didn’t have to.”
He coughed and continued on.
“I set up the rings because I wanted to be treated like everyone else even though it was the same company where my old man was put in the Hall of Fame. I wanted to earn my way by my ability and you know what? After I paid my dues for a little while, I won a title and then I won another title. Me, a newcomer less than a year in with two titles in the same place my old man was considered a legend.
Then, I lost them both. I wasn’t lost. I didn’t cry about it. I worked harder and went elsewhere. Went to another company. Wore a title there for nearly six months. Won another title in an indy promotion. Spent nearly three years working for a title I wanted and finally won it. Went to Japan and was the first DIVINE Dawn Champion in their history. Beat that piece of shit MUSASHI when it mattered the most.
I like to think when the chips are on the table, I come through time and time against. SVW Climax 2016, Sunny Kyoun in cage? I got it done. Next year, SVW Climax 2017, beat her again for the Adrenaline Title. I got past MUSASHI. I’ve beaten giants in that ring, and I’ve beaten some of the best women that this sport has to offer. I’ve been beaten by some of the best that this sport has to offer.
I was ready to finally beat Ace Watson and close that door, but we all know that story. He suddenly gets hurt a couple of weeks before Heroes & Cons. It gave me the chance to look at myself at honestly take to heart some of the words that were said to me by Mistress Vivi about my attitude.
Since then, I don’t know, it’s been ringing in my head that I’ve so far up my own ass that no one can stand me. It’s why I’ve been quiet. Why I haven’t said much outside of an interview show and what I said about Sean Libby before our match a couple of weeks ago.
Now we got this five on five match tonight with the stakes high. I might be out of a job no matter what side wins tonight. It’s a funny feeling when I march to that ring tonight and wrestle for something I don’t even know if I believe in anymore.”
He sighed again.
“When I originally got pissed with Chuck Matthews, it was about Ace Watson and how he got what he really didn’t deserve. I still don’t think he deserved as much as he got either. Nothing will change my mind on it. But I’ve been looped into this team led by Grace van Beek for a man that’s…
You know that old saying about the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t? That’s how I’m feeling. I know Chuck Matthews and, well, I’ve misjudged him somewhat because of my disdain for Ace Matthews and his never ending support of him. If Chuck was really out to get me, like I thought he was, I’m fairly certain he would’ve sent some sort of aid or distraction in my match against Vivi to keep me out of the main event.”
He paused for a second to collect his thoughts.
“Grace crossed a line with me. I don’t like things being personal in this sport. I’ve gone through it enough that I don’t care for it. When she mentioned Chuck’s dead son, that struck a chord in me because of my own personal failing at being a father. Haven’t seen my son in over a year and it’s my fault. And yet…
I just can’t get those words out of my head. She doesn’t see the big deal because of all is fair in love and war, but I cannot accept that. Because of my actions against Chuck, should his team win, I’m in hot water. If Grace’s team wins, I don’t know if I can work for someone who uses a man’s own dead son against him.
Always liked to fancy myself as a big match wrestler, but tonight, I just don’t see it. I’ll wrestle whoever is in front of me. I’ll do what I’m paid to do and that’s it. I’ll wrestle in your match but I’m done playing this game.”
And the audio cut off.
“You know, it’s funny when I look back on it. After I lost to Nessa Wall in the battle for the briefcase tournament, I asked for a match against Chuck Matthews because I wanted to make an impact. Losing in the tournament stung at me, ate at me, and I did something dumb to get the match made, but it was made.”
He sighed showing some disgust for his unreasonable actions following that match on social media.
“The match was made against Chuck Matthews at Into the Fire and he showed that he can still go. He worked over my leg, made it hard for me to do what I did then, fly around. But I pinned him right in the middle of the ring. I went to the back and sat and thought about it. I thought about it some more and I asked myself what did that really accomplish. That I could beat a businessman who hadn’t been in the ring for a while?”
He paused for a moment.
“What did that give me? Nothing. Battle Cry rolls around. Scheduled to face someone, they back out as they have elsewhere and left me with no one. Little sister voices up and say she wants me in the ring. I didn’t want to fight Brittany. I never wanted to go against my sister so I gave her the win and said what I had to say which I still mean. This sport is about the likes on Twitter, the hot takes and the draggings. Do I disagree with some of what is said? No, there’s a lot ruining this sport, but I swear that no one wants to work hard anymore, and myself was included to that.
I felt like the world owed me something. Felt like I had more coming to me than I did because of this goddamn name. I felt like I was meant to be more than I was because of some of the insane shit that I’ve done. I’ve jumped off things in Ultimate X, I’ve been in wars with the skin on my forehead dangling down because someone wanted to hurt me that and I’ve been in matches where three, four people get involved.
Been wrestling since I was 16. My fifth match or so in this sport, I was facing a veteran. A guy who didn’t take too kindly to me being in the same company. I was lit up that night. He hit me hard in the jaw, nearly broke it. Gave me a concussion. Made me bleed. He took me to hell and back that night but I didn’t give up, didn’t stop because this is what I wanted to do with my life. I paid my dues, as some of the older people in this sport said. I paid those dues by helping set up the ring before shows even though I didn’t have to.”
He coughed and continued on.
“I set up the rings because I wanted to be treated like everyone else even though it was the same company where my old man was put in the Hall of Fame. I wanted to earn my way by my ability and you know what? After I paid my dues for a little while, I won a title and then I won another title. Me, a newcomer less than a year in with two titles in the same place my old man was considered a legend.
Then, I lost them both. I wasn’t lost. I didn’t cry about it. I worked harder and went elsewhere. Went to another company. Wore a title there for nearly six months. Won another title in an indy promotion. Spent nearly three years working for a title I wanted and finally won it. Went to Japan and was the first DIVINE Dawn Champion in their history. Beat that piece of shit MUSASHI when it mattered the most.
I like to think when the chips are on the table, I come through time and time against. SVW Climax 2016, Sunny Kyoun in cage? I got it done. Next year, SVW Climax 2017, beat her again for the Adrenaline Title. I got past MUSASHI. I’ve beaten giants in that ring, and I’ve beaten some of the best women that this sport has to offer. I’ve been beaten by some of the best that this sport has to offer.
I was ready to finally beat Ace Watson and close that door, but we all know that story. He suddenly gets hurt a couple of weeks before Heroes & Cons. It gave me the chance to look at myself at honestly take to heart some of the words that were said to me by Mistress Vivi about my attitude.
Since then, I don’t know, it’s been ringing in my head that I’ve so far up my own ass that no one can stand me. It’s why I’ve been quiet. Why I haven’t said much outside of an interview show and what I said about Sean Libby before our match a couple of weeks ago.
Now we got this five on five match tonight with the stakes high. I might be out of a job no matter what side wins tonight. It’s a funny feeling when I march to that ring tonight and wrestle for something I don’t even know if I believe in anymore.”
He sighed again.
“When I originally got pissed with Chuck Matthews, it was about Ace Watson and how he got what he really didn’t deserve. I still don’t think he deserved as much as he got either. Nothing will change my mind on it. But I’ve been looped into this team led by Grace van Beek for a man that’s…
You know that old saying about the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t? That’s how I’m feeling. I know Chuck Matthews and, well, I’ve misjudged him somewhat because of my disdain for Ace Matthews and his never ending support of him. If Chuck was really out to get me, like I thought he was, I’m fairly certain he would’ve sent some sort of aid or distraction in my match against Vivi to keep me out of the main event.”
He paused for a second to collect his thoughts.
“Grace crossed a line with me. I don’t like things being personal in this sport. I’ve gone through it enough that I don’t care for it. When she mentioned Chuck’s dead son, that struck a chord in me because of my own personal failing at being a father. Haven’t seen my son in over a year and it’s my fault. And yet…
I just can’t get those words out of my head. She doesn’t see the big deal because of all is fair in love and war, but I cannot accept that. Because of my actions against Chuck, should his team win, I’m in hot water. If Grace’s team wins, I don’t know if I can work for someone who uses a man’s own dead son against him.
Always liked to fancy myself as a big match wrestler, but tonight, I just don’t see it. I’ll wrestle whoever is in front of me. I’ll do what I’m paid to do and that’s it. I’ll wrestle in your match but I’m done playing this game.”
And the audio cut off.